Hereby is my livejournal Friends Only :) I noticed that I feel better when some posts are FO. Fics, icons and silly things will still be public, but for personal posts you need to be my friend. I don't mind if you want to add me, but I rather have you first commenting here (:

<3 Cho

Here is my intro post.

If you're searching for my fics, you can look at euphoricfields.

Think about the year that has passed. All the memories, the entries and posts that made the year special. Think about all your past layouts, default icons, mood themes. How about all those conversations you had via comments, or the huge post in ONTD that you spent all night commenting on. The 2009 Scrapbook Post is a way to help you remember all of that, in a single post. 2009_scrapbook

( Scrapbook )

PIN *___________* I am just so fucking happy right now ;_; They actually sang a song together just with the two of them. That has been like my fandom dream ever since I started liking Pin. And the song is so beautiful, as well as the lyrics. I don't even care if they sing off-tone sometimes, it's too beautiful <3333 Gah, TAY*J should totally happen.

I already missed a day XD;;

Day 01 → Your favourite song
Day 02 → Your favourite movie
Day 03 → Your favourite television programme
Day 04 → Your favourite book

Uhm - my favourite book~ Well, I don't really read that much nowadays and what I read are mostly chicklits and books where I don't have to do much thinking XD;; I just finished a book with 100 pages and it took me three weeks to read :')

But of course I really love the Harry Potter books. The fourth will always be my favourite, because of the tournament and the christmas dance and of course, the ending *____* I love all the angst and the ~tension~

I also love the Twilight books (YES, I DO 8D). I'm such a sucker for love stories, especially the 'forbidden' ones. Can't wait to see New Moon! I also like After Dark by Murakami Haruki, because it's so well - weird. Oh! And I loooove the Georgia Nickelson books (Agnus, thongs and full-frontal snogging), because it's so damn funny. Yeah, I know they're for 13 year olds, but I still like them. I've read them all, but I only own the first and the last four, so I hope I can get them all one day :D

Day 05 → Your favourite quote

"Love is the only thing that makes the world spin around. It’s weird. We have to call it “love,” because we have to call it something, but it’s not a word. It’s an energy. It’s an act. It’s an action. It’s a natural thing. EVERYTHING is love." - Jason Mraz

"It takes no time to fall in love, but it takes you years to know what love is," - Jason Mraz.

"These violent delights have violent ends
and in their triumph
like fire and powder
which, as they kiss, consume." - Romeo & Juliet

The HQ of BANDAGE is finally out! :D I've been listening to the radio rip for weeks and to have it in good quality now is awesome <3 I love this song so much already and the lyrics are gorgeous, if not very hard to understand XD

Oh, and Pi's cons started (: It sounds like so much fun and I love that he had Toma over :D I really hope Jin or Takki (or maybe Ryo) will come as guests, that would be awesome~ Oh and that he sang to that girl is just so sweet, she is so lucky ne :D I love that he tried to please his fans as much as possible, he is such a good guy, I love him ;_;

Day 01 → Your favourite song
Day 02 → Your favourite movie
Day 03 → Your favourite television programme

Hmm, my favourite TV programme~ I don't watch much TV these days. Sometimes I watch Project Runway, sometimes a documentary and sometimes a random TV show. What I do watch on TV is Ugly Betty, which I totally adore, but it's not airing atm. Oh, and I absolutely love Ashes to Ashes <3 Idk if someone knows it here (except for maybe Vix & Pippa), cause it's Brittish (I watch a lot of BBC :D), but it's about a police woman who gets shot in the present and then gets send back into the eighties *____* It's such an awesome show, I hope there will be a third season~

What I don't watch on TV, but do download every week is Gossip Girl, Glee and LOST. Oh! That might be my favourite show :D I lovelovelove LOST, I've been watching since I was 14 and I still do. It's not airing now, but S6 will be aired in February, so I'm waiting (: It's the last season though *sadfaced* But maybe that's better, because the story is already almost at its end =)

Oh, and the other stuff I bought yesterday:( Here~~ )

Oh, I'm going to watch the Junior Song Festival now, it's already started!

Okay, so I'm at school now and utterly bored, so here's a post XD I will post tonight with flail about Pi's new single and some other stuff~ ...Actually, I just want to pimp my thread at the fic meme:

The JE Fanfiction Feedback & Concrit Meme
Tell me what YOU think of my writing here!

Please do comment, I'd like to know what you think of my writing (:

Also, about the Code Blue 2 news... I watched the first episode when I didn't know who Yamapi was and I hated it, I just couldn't watch it. I just hate medical dramas so much and if there's going to be a second season, that means I can't flail with you guys. The only nice thing about it is that Yamapi will dye his hair to black, but that also mean the poodle hair will return (really, which Japanese doctor has permed hair?).

Sorry for this rant, but I was really anticipating the Pin drama (yes, I know, rumors, but a fangirl can hope, right? XD) and I just don't want a CB2. Well, if it does happen, I won't watch.

I'm so bored ): Well, at least I wrote 1k for JEhols in the train (yay for bringing Shige-sama with me today) and hopefully I'm going to shop for new boots with Mum later today (:

Gonna try to do some homework now, byebye <3

Shige-sama is so slow today >_>

I wrote for JEhols this weekend and I already have 4k, so that's good :D But idk if I like it yet, because it feels to me that my writing isn't as good as I'd like to. If I read some stuff back, I go like 'hay, this is actually pretty good~', but these days all I write is porn or really boring fic XD Where'd my muse go? D: Maybe it's just because I'm really busy and have less time to write (only in weekends now). I hope it is or else I'm fucked XD Ah, I just wanted to write something really epic, I guess. Maybe next time ne~

Anyway, I stole a meme from silver_rose88 and crystallekil :D

( I'll make you bounce to this! )

Oh, btw, I finally watched the first ep of Samurai High School and it's hilarious XD zbnfvhdbvfdvfd Haruma is such a good actor and SO HOT as a Samurai, fuck *___________* Shirota Yuu as the shy loser is a bit weird, though XD;;

fvjfdbvfdv I have so many things to watch. My Girl (STILL haven't seen ep 3), Ohitorisama, Gossip Girl, You're Beautiful (I promised Ears I'd watch it. And hey, it has a GD look-a-like xD). But tonight I'll probably end up watching Project Catwalk XD

I don't look like a hamster anymore! :D It still hurts a bit on the right side, but this is the first day since the surgery that I can do without painkillers, so that's good ne (: Friday I felt really awful though; because of the pain I couldn't eat much and the painkillers actually made me sick instead of making me feel better D: But I feel a lot better now. I hope the pain will be gone in a few days~

Soooo, NWPD is out :D I've seen the first part and it was absolutely wonderful <3 I remembered how much I actually love NEWS.
But now MU doesn't want to do ANYTHING anymore. At least on Shige-sama (I finally gave my laptop a name XD), because on my old pc it works, only it takes 10 hours to download (I'm not kidding). So yeah, or I have to wait till it's officially released and then dl via MF, or someone could be really kind and upload it for me? ;_; I swear, I'd write you tons of fic and bake you cookies <3

Talking about NWPD, I did manage to get the PV's downloaded and fdjbvhdfbvhfd they are all amazing. ( Cut for spoilers, if someone hasn't seen them yet XD )

Uhm, what else? Oh, I wrote fic and there's one beneath I forgot to pimp. I'm busy with your requests, but I keep writing other things, sorry :X

And I feel somehow kinda sadfaced that Nano starts today and I have no time. I wanted to write epic film noir!AU, but I don't think it's going to happen XD Or maybe I'll write it, only not as epic.

Hi~

I don't have much to tell, except that tomorrow is Dooms Day D: God, if I even think about it, I get all shivery and emo. I REALLY REALLY hope they'll let me listen to my MP3-player or something, because NO WAY I'm going to listen to them -- I also don't wanna see a thing. bhfvvjubfdjvbfdvdf DDDDDDDDDDDDDD: OH GOD I'M SO SCARED. What should I do~ *runs around screaming*

Okay, I'm just going to watch Glee all night and tomorrow morning and then think really hard of Pi and Kame and Jin and porn with the three of them and hope everything will be fine. I hope. Oh God. *wibbles*

Also, today I was in Leiden visiting the intern place one of my group mates from school and while walking around, I saw this:

( Look and go 'eeeeeeeeh?'  )

See it? I almost screamed XD THIS ISN'T COINCIDENCE, THIS IS JUST PLAIN FREAKY. But awesome at the same time xD

Okay, off watching Glee and certainly NOT thinking of tomorrow.

EDIT: OH FUCK, I'M SO GOING TO CRY TOMORROW. D: is not even beginnin to cover how I feel right now.

I had curry with eggplant for dinner and it amuses me to no end. Why yes, I am twelve XD

♥ Continuation of my last post: I declined and now I have two weeks Christmas holiday. For some reason that doesn't make me feel better, only guilty. Wtf self.

♥ Yesterday I went shopping with Onee-chan in Amsterdam :D I tried to find a book on editing first draft novels, but I couldn't find it. Even the American Book Centre didn't have it D: I did buy a very long (and warm!) black cardigan. It's HUGE, but I love it <3 I also bought this cute headband (isn't it Blair-ish? :D)

( never stays long )

Oh, and a new face wash and daily cream, because because of this weather and the museum (the air gets controlled there; it's kept very dry) my face gets very dry. It better work, because it cost effing much XD

♥ bhfdvbhfdvbfhd LOVELESS *______* OMG, I love it, already. And I haven't even heard the whole song. Pi sounds different, like he got singing lessons, but I noticed he already sang better on the Koi no ABO single =) I love the beat and the piano. I'm going to be so addicted.
I'm also addicted to BANDAGE. The guitar in the beginnig, so pretty *_______* I can't wait for the real single, so Jin's voice will be even more clear <3

♥ Okay, so I got the S from drphoenix and damn, it was hard to come up with stuff O_o Anyway, here it is:

( she's certainly a hurricane )

♥ And I finally got twitter XD Add me if you have twitter too?

♥ Lol, I just realized I tag every single post with 'me' XD Well of course, it's my journal. I fail.

At the moment I'm at the Tropenmuseum, holding lunch break (I always catch up with my flist during lunch, yes XD). I have exactly 7 minutes to type this post, so here we go, lol.

♥ aures is not coming over this weekend ): Her granddad is very sick and can well - pass away any moment now, so I told her it's better to stay home. Of course, I'm a little dissapointed, since I haven't seen her since June, but I think it's more important she's at home right now. So don't feel bad about it, Ears. I love you, honey ♥♥♥

'Cause I have to get to the hospital next week, I feel a bit restless. But luckily Onee-chan is coming home and we're probably going shopping Friday, so that makes me feel a bit better (:

♥ bdhvbdfhvbfd BANDAGE TRAILER. Why has no one flailed about it yet? XD I've watched it like 5 times in a row, and OMG, I want to see it SO BAD. Jin is so fucking beautiful in it *_____* DO WANT.

♥ Watched Yatterman Sunday and it was probably the weirdest shit I've ever seen XD I laughed my ass off every three minutes, but it was still weird. It seriously had no plot and was it supposed to be a kids' movie with all those sex jokes? XD I did love the evil queen though~ I recognized her by her voice XD. Anyway: funny, but strange.

♥ When walking to the museum this morning, I saw a car with the number plate SX-TG-69 XD;; I DIDN'T MAKE THIS UP, REALLY. I would've taken a pic, if I wasn't already really late. Maybe the car is still there when I go home~

Ah, break is done. See you guys later, byebye ♥

Gawd, I've been crying every night this week D: I am just so fucking tired (I should be in bed by now, but okay). Even fic that is totally not sad still makes me cry XD Luckily I have 3 day weekend or else I'd be dead by tomorrow evening. And next weekend aures is coming over for a long sleepover, yay! ♥ My parents won't be home, so we can watch concerts and dramas on the flatscreen (OMG, huge Yamapi in HQ *____* YESH) :D Already looking forward to it~

And again I have new friends :D Hi, aokiyai and drphoenix! I will make an intro post tomorrow, so yoroshiku! (:

Oh, and because I have no inspiration whatsoever these days when it comes to fic (even *porn* failed, so that's bad XD), please spam me with pairings and prompts~
I will write NEWS and KAT-TUN and about 10 drabbles - wait, I don't think I'll ever get that many requests - okay, I write everything up till 10 drabbles :D

I have posted more three times this week, I believe that's a record~

Thanks for your sweet comments, ilu flist ♥

Saw this on Crys' and Pips' journals (:



Well, to be honest, yes XD I mostly write to be read~ Whether it's fic or original stuff, I want people to read it. I always hope some of you will read it, stupid isn't it? I also always hope for lots of comments, because I have yet to realize that a few awesome comments is better than two pages XD

I also got really nervous because of JE rainbow XD I really wanted Pippa to like it, because I'm a perfectionist like that. I've changed the plot about a million times, 'cause it just wasn't right or I couldn't fit that in, etc. Anyway, I also hoped that I'd gain some attention through the exchange and people will read my other stuff XD Same goes for JEHoliday, I really want to write something epic, but up until now I haven't really thought of anything good XD

Speaking of fic, I'm shamelessly going to pimp my JE rainbow fic here: Don't forget to look (before you fall) :D

Oh, and again I have a new friend :D Hi, encoded_panties! Whee, I like it so much that you're Dutch too~ In my last post and user info is some stuff about me, but I'll make an intro post when I get time (probably Friday).

(A few days late, but) fdbvhfdbvhfdbvfd MY JE RAINBOW FIC *____________* AND IT'S ALL MINE, MINE, MINE, MIIIIIINE :D GO READ IT RIGHT NOW (and if you already did, read it again!).
cjbvdhfvbufd, I LOVELOVELOVE IT SO MUCH. I GOT PIN. AND IT HAS MEISA. AND NINJA KAMEISA. AND JIN(NIFFER) IN A KIMONO fdhbvhfdbvhfdv *_________* I LOVE guys in kimonos (hell, I even wrote kimono!Kame) Just - fucking amazing ♥ (AND DID I MENTION THAT I GOT PIN? AKA MY FAVOURITE PAIRING EVER fvhbvfbdvbfdbv)
The writer HAS to be on my flist, though. I kind of tried to guess, but I'll just wait until Monday xD

♥ While you're at it, read this. I love this interview. Finally they paired up other members~ Shige and Tego are so adorable together :D

Shige: Umm. We wouldn’t not get along with each other but if during break time he said “Shige, lets go play soccer!” I think I’d refuse (laugh)

I totally wrote something like that in an AU high school fic, about four months ago XD

♥ Less flaily news, I have to go to the hospital tomorrow afternoon to make pics and then have a consult with the doctor. DO NOT WANT. Luckily Mutti is coming, so I won't have to be alone. I'm just going to listen to NEWS and read fic all morning, so I have something fun to think about XD

♥ Ugh, Autumn D: I got totally SOAKED this afternoon, because the tram just wouldn't come and fdvbhfdbvhfd, not nice. I like Autumn if it's not wet XD Well, at least we get photoshoots with Kame in big snuggly sweaters. I like Kame in big snuggly sweaters, makes me wanna cuddle up with him ♥

♥ Oh, and here, have some Beni :D Because I love her voice and Jin and her should totally do a collaboration, yo~ (and look, I can write Japanese! *points at her 'listening to'*)

fvndbvhdbvd Nano is in a month and it makes me so sad I can't enter this time ): I mean - I know I won't be having any time, because I already struggled so hard to write that fic for JERainbow and that wasn't even 1/5 of what Nano is >_< Nano is always so much fun to do, the struggle, the frustration, the word wars, catching up on your daily wordcount, and the pure bliss when you hit 50k. I've done it 3 times now and it's always so amazing.
Well, I think could try to participate, I guess. I just need to come up with a plot real soon XD Or I could finish my so not based on Shuuji/Akira Nano from last year or edit my second Nano~ But how the fuck do you edit a 80 pages long book? xD Ah, dilemmas~

On another note, I wrote a ~poem~ yesterday, when I was being bored and emo at my internship. It's been like 7 months since I wrote one, so it's not my best, but I kind of like it (: I won't say what it's about though, because it's rather embarrassing to admit, but here it is~


( and oh, please, stay awhile )



Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CRYS! :D *throws with sparklies and confetti and softly hums Happy Birthday*

♥ ndjvnfdjvbfdjvfd PATRICK WOLF *_____* OMG, IT WAS AMAZING. He's so, so, so good, fnbjfgbnfd. His voice, just wow, SO GOOD.

( Too much flail continues here XD )

♥ fdmbvnfdjbvvdf PI SOLO CON. PI SOLO SINGLE (SEVEN NEW SONGS, OMG), NEWS NWPD DVD (WITH EVERYTHING I WANTED ON IT), DOCUMENTARIES, PV's, fnfvbhfdvbfd *______* OMG, aures and me were just flailing and complaining about Pi's solo con, but getting no NEWS DVD or what. AND NOW WE DO *_________________________*

♥ LOL, Akanishipeen looks like an aubergine XD

♥ Ah, I don't have enough time to read everything at JE Rainbow. I WILL, I REALLY WILL. The Yamaki was really amazing, I'm dying to know who wrote it, lol. Can't wait for my fic! :D

I wanted to post yesterday, but I was too busy trying to send my fic in on time XD So I'll post now~

♥ jerainbowbridge started posting, yay! :D Gawd, I really hope my fic isn't the lamest of the bunch, because from what I've seen, the first three fics seem already super awesome *nervous*

♥ LOLOLOL, CHECK THIS. Pin fans, ILU xD It isn't as well done as the Akame manip, but still pretty hot, I say 8D

♥ nfvdbvhfdbvd BUZZER BEAT ep 11! *______* OMG, I'm not going to post a whole ramble right now, but the ending was so cute! I wish I could make screencaps, so I can make icons XD Okay, the ending was pretty predictable (because I realized what was going to happen when I watched ep 10 with subs), but hee, still vair awesome ♥ BB has kicked HYD out of my top 5 and now snuggled up with ProDai which is at 3 atm xD

♥ I got my paycheck this week, so went shopping yesterday and I bought some clothes and a kame phone charm for Jin :D Pics under da cut.

( No one will wear my silver ring  )

♥ I finally got Gtalk! :D I have no friends atm, so if you want to add me, go ahead~ I'm euphoricfields. And does someone know how to type Japanese on your PC? Idk how XD

MONDAY PATRICK WOLF, YAY :D Can't wait!

I'm now holding a break at my internship place, so that means time to update XD Right now, I have to type the information of 200 surveys into Excel. So unbelievably boring XD I've now done about 100 I think, so that means I have another 100 to go xD

♥ This morning I went to the doctor for my wisdomteeth and the doctor's send me to the hospital. I need to make an appointment to make pictures of my jaw, hurray~ *hates hospitals* Well, at least it's just pictures, but idk - I don't want more than that XD

♥ I had to get some extension for the Rainbow Exchange xO I only have about an hour to write at night and my fic has become way longer than planned (as always, lol). Well, luckily they gave me till Friday and since I've written the almost-ending in the train today, I think I have it finished by then (: Only my beta aures is sick (poor her *hug*, so Idk if she has engery to beta the whole thing, because I've rewritten about half of it = uhoh.

♥ Crys said I should self-rec my fics, but I'm not gonna open my fic comm here XD Too NSFW, so or I'll edit this post tonight or do it in a next post~

♥ HQ scans of Jin's butt AnAn shoot is out, yay! And I didn't get to watch BB ep 11 yet, but I will today or tomorrow (:

Okay, this is going to be whiny post, so be warned XD

♥ First the not-whiny part: Yesterday I got my P-diploma~ First I went downtown, because that's were Gitta and me were meeting up. But I still got an hour and since the shops were still open, I went to shop for a little bit. I got myself new cute earrings and a necklace, the True Blood novel (well, part 1) and the new Teen Vogue with smexy Taylor Lautner (y'know, that guy that plays Jacob in Twilight) :D
Then I met up with Gitta to eat at a restaurant and then went back to school again (all dressed up, haha) for our Propedeuse. Mutti and Vati were coming too~ But basically, it was just a talk from some teachers, signing some papers and well - that was it XD It didn't take more than an hour, lol. But over all it was pretty nice =)

Now the whining parts:

♥ I quit my job today, because I can't keep up with school and internship and work. The Tropen pays me more than I earn at my job, so money is not a problem atm. And really, I'm so tired all the time. I always have to work really hard at my job, so when I come home at 7 on Saturday, I'm always half-dead.
But here it comes: I can't quit right away, no, I have to work until 1 November, because they're short on people and because apparently there's this term of notice of a month. So yeah, I'm stuck there for another five weeks D: This sucks SO MUCH. I just can't keep this up. But my boss won't believe me, she thinks school is less important than work. Well, fuck you very much, bitch.

♥ So uh - I didn't tell anyone this, apart from Fleur and Ears. I made an appointment with the doctor, because of my wisdom teeth. They won't come through. It started to hurt last year september and they're still not coming through and it hurts so fucking much. Of course, I went to the dentist a few times, but he said that 'it'll be fine'. But my jaw, neck, shoulders and head hurts all the time (not simultanously) because of those stupid teeth. So I made an appointment so they can send me to the hospital. I seriously DON'T want to go to the hospital, because I hate that place, but yeah, there needs something to be done about it, I'm afraid ):
On one hand, I don't want to go to the hospital, but on the other hand, it just hurts too much *feels really sucky*

♥ Okay, I've also been putting this off to say, but here it is:
I know I've already whined so much about this, but - I want a boyfriend. And I know you'll all be saying 'it'll come!', but really, I'm 19. I feel ancient. Guys don't look at me. I feel jealous of other people's boyfriends and that makes me feel like a bitch. I seriously don't know what I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm Just Not gf material? I'm not that awful, am I? ):

So, that was it. Sorry for whining so much, but I just had to tell.

Oh, and I wrote fic (while I actually should be writing for the fic exchange): Akame - 505~

I'm so fucking cold atm ;_; Idk why, because it was pretty warm today, but now I'm freezing *puts on another sweater*

♥ Tomorrow I get my Propedeuse diploma, which is basically a prove I've made the first year of HBO. With a Propedeuse you can go to Uni, but I didn't XD However, I'm seriously thinking of studying Japanese after this study. I know, I need to do another three years, and I might think differently then, but now, it seems so interesting. If I finish Museology and then do Japanese, I can do all sorts of things in the cultural world~

Anyway, tomorrow night after internship I'm meeting up with Gitta to go and eat out together :D But because she'll arrive later, I'm going to look for some books at the huuuuuge bookshop downtown, because stores are open till late, yay~

♥ About Pi dating that girl~ Idk, I so want him to date Keiko XD While I do approve of Yamahet, I ship KeikoPi so hard I don't want him to date another girl. Well, she seems nice and she's smart and not a slut, so it should be okay, ne (: I only think she's like creepily cute, lol. And I hope Pi won't get into trouble because of those pics~

♥ I have a plot for JE_hols! :D FINALLY. Thank you, Jason Mraz. But first Rainbow Exchange need to be finished, so I'll be working on that in the weekend. Ah, I don't really like it that much, but I'll probably rewrite about half of it anyway XD

I wanted to say more, but I can't remember... Oh, I got an extern hard disc of 1000 GB (I know, ridiculously much), so I never ever have to delete anything anymore, isn't that awesome? XD

And I downloaded BB ep 10, so I'm gonna watch that now~ Byebye <3

Yay, meme time! This one I stole from crystallekil :D

( Saying 'oh please, I'm in love'  )

♥ I have a new lay-out: changetje :D I actually wanted a Jin lay-out, but I couldn't find a nice one and he's vair hot with his Pin-perm here, so yay! I also have a new profile pic and Kame is really too hot for his own good. UNF *_____*

♥ I really, really like G-Dragon's solo album 8D And he's totally hot in the Heartbreaker PV *late realisation*

♥ Does anyone has some good fic recs? Pin, Akame, KoyaShige, I don't care, just give me some *____* Fluff and porn are more than welcome ♥